This is I

          Hi! I'm not going to start off with my name or what my age is or what my favorite color is but what I want is for you to know who I really am. I am complicated. I say I'm sad but I'm really happy. I say I'm happy but I'm really not. I was a competitive swimmer. I sang for a choir. I directed plays and musicals. However, I still don't know what I want to be in life. They say I have loads of potential but I don't see it. Instead, I see failure and fear. I WANT TO CHANGE THAT. I WANT TO SEE THINGS CLEARLY FOR MYSELF.

          Sometimes, I confuse myself with other people. I want to be other people instead finding real myself. I am a hard worker but I want to work hard for myself and not for others. I cry for big things. So if I cry or even shed a tear for this one thing, then I know this is big. I am in constant fear of failing. Failing my grades or failing to do something that will make other poeple happy or pleased with me. I guess you can call me a bit of a people pleaser but I don't want that all the time. I can say I am a bisexual but that doesn't matter. I am Rica Garcia. You can call me Rica G. for shot and my favorite color is green.